..and for now, the music dreams must die.

Am I a total bitch? You might think so now if you didn't before. So music boy wrote me back. And it isn't pretty. I would love to think that I'm not a superficial person and so I wince as I write this because I know how bad it sounds, but I just can't be attracted to this guy.

He looks like Napoleon Dynamite and Christina Ricci had a baby. And that is not cute my friends.

I didn't reply. I know, I'm going to hell. Totally.

I'm just trying to keep it real. So many fish in the sea. So many cuts of meat on the rack.

I don't know him well enough to have him slide on personality alone and at this point, I'm just not really ready to get there. It would hurt him more if I actually met him then never called him again, right? That's my defense and I'm sticking to it.

On Jan 2, 2008 5:31 PM, REDACTED wrote:

Hey Sarah,


I must confess something; I use a different name for CL, and things like that. My real name is__________. Go to this website:____________ and it will tell you more about me (+pics). Thanks for understanding...in my business I must have control over where my name appears:)

So anyway,

I went to the Berklee College of Music. I had a great little apartment in the back bay, always loved it. Since I grew up in a college town (Champaign) I liked the feel of boston. I did get to visit New York often though and couldn't be happier to live here now (although, santa monica is on the beach...hehe).

Im primarily a guitar player, but I also sing, play piano, drums, mandolin, as the situation arises. I know a bunch of jazz clubs all over New York, so I can happily take you to some really hip ones...I'll have to check on Les Mis again, hopefully they'll extend it;) I'll surely let you know.

It's sweet that you get to hang in Chelsea, I love that whole area. We use a rehearsal space there sometimes called SIR. I have a pretty chill schedule much of the time, most of our activities won't really pick up until next month. Would you like to do something on Friday? I know of an art exhibit that's really cool, and a jazz club that starts later with a legendary band playing.

Did you go to school in Austin?
I'll spare the rest of my questions for later, and I hope you've had a wonderful day as well.
Take care, and I look forward to hearing back from you:)

-___________ (you can still email me here).